… Taking a Double Bogey

As some of you may know, HubbyK has taken up Disc Golfing. I’ll save you the details of how the game is played, etc. but I will say, there are days when he has a great game, and other days, not so great. Naturally, on the good days, it is much easier for him to share the excitement and love of the game with me. In turn, on the not so great days, there is usually very little to say.

BabyK has been on a "on-again-off-again" nap strike for a month; including late night fits and early morning meltdowns. To a mother who is used to waking every few hours with their newborn this may seem like a trivial complaint. But this momma dearly misses the 6pm-6am sleeping routine and a solid afternoon nap.

In hindsight, I see the ridiculousness of my next move, but to my credit, it seemed like the natural thing to do at the time. Sure we were all a little cranky and short tempered, but BabyK had crawled on the potty of her own accord, and when I removed her diaper, proceeded to pee. To me this only meant one thing; BabyK wants to pottytrain.

So I set up the potty in a central location and let BabyK go commando! Every 15 mins the alarm would go off and BabyK would sit on the potty. We had a lot of accidents but we also had some successes. It was exciting - for the first day.

The days that followed were a different story. Our successes rapidly disappeared and the excitement wore off. It got to the point where the only thing making it to the potty was #2 (which of the two options was the more desirable). I can laugh now, but at the time I felt defeated. It was not how I thought this adventure would look like, and I felt foolish for trying to rush into it.

So, we've taken a step back. BabyK now sits on the potty if she decides to or if I catch her making "poo-faces". I look forward to trying again, now that I have gained some perspective.

This whole ordeal has been a good reminder of a painful, yet empowering truth; God doesn't call us to be "successful", He calls us to be faithful.

Sometimes I feel that God has sent me on a mission of an uphill battle that I am destined to loose. But when I remember that a "win" might not actually be what God is aiming for, I find it easier to press on and trust He's working on something greater.

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Ezekiel 3:11

"Go now to your people in exile and speak to them. Say to them, ‘This is what the Sovereign LORD says,’ whether they listen or fail to listen."