... Smelling the Roses

Everything takes a little extra time with BabyK. Whether its eating a snack or getting ready for a walk outside, I've found that things inevitably take 5-10 mins longer than I think they should. Although this isn't a bad thing, my desire for efficiency and productivity is needing to be put on the back burner. Some days, this is hard.

Items on my "to do" list are constantly being added to or checked off. Before BabyK, these items seemed to move through the list at a constant pace; like the flow of a constant stream. These days I feel as if BabyK has set up a dam on my "to do" list and only the most vital things slip through.

This isn't her fault; she is a baby for crying out loud! Surely I can't expect her to eat as fast as I do, put on her own shoes and change her own diaper! As much as expediting these tasks sounds tempting, I recognize that there is good that comes from reducing output to increase input. In other terms, it's good to stop and smell the roses. One day, they might not be there.

The "rose" that I am starting to really enjoy the "scent" of these days is sitting and reading with BabyK on my lap. Before being a mom, I read for my own enjoyment or education and with the constant goal of finishing as soon as possible. Now, I find myself reading the same thing 20 times, upside down and backwards. BabyK loves to point at all the words and to turn the pages while I love holding her in my arms as the world spins by around us.

BabyK is not the only one who seems to be controlling time. Everyday I have to give over my schedule and plans to the One in control of it all. You guessed it; God. There are many things I feel should just hurry up and happen already (the end to this global pandemic for example). Yet after waiting 7 years to marry the man I love and see all the incredible, uncanny ways things have played out in our favour, one would think I would have learned to let God take care of it by now.

Perhaps BabyK already knows that a rose can't be enjoyed when its gone, and I have to start looking for the roses.

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Isaiah 60:22

"...I am the LORD; in its time I will do this swiftly."