... Getting Emotional

I had once prided myself on my ability to be unaffected by heart wrenching dramas. For a while the only movie that could break tears from me was Finding Nemo. Even then, I blamed those big watery animated eyes and the personal connection I had with the movie. You see, one day while I was watching the montage where Nigel is listing all the obstacles Nemo's dad Marlin was facing in order to be reunited with his son, a still small voice whispered in my heart "I would do the same for you, I have done the same for you."

That still sweet voice was God. You can disagree with me, but there'd be little point. You weren't there and you aren't me. So if you think I'm crazy, I'd understand. But if you're open to the possibility it could be true, enjoy the moment with me. This movie was all about a little fish trying to be with his son. This is the same story as the gospel (minus the fish being friends bit). The gospel message(in short) is that humans are meant to live in harmony with God. Yet because He is holy and we are not, we can't be together. Instead of being kidnapped by divers, we've been swept up by our own interests, and cares of this world. While Marlin risked his life to meet his son where he was at, Jesus actually had to give up his life to bring us home.

Thankfully, both stories can have a happy ending. Both stories bring me tears. Maybe I can blame it on hormones, or the fact I now have a child of my own. Either way, I'm not the stoic Fort Knox I thought I once was. And that's ok. Obviously I'd love to be able to hear the song "Baby of Mine" without loosing my composure, or watch a movie on civil rights without having to take a pause to clear my eyes from the flood of tears. Yet, feeling deep and big feelings is apart of life. Without them, life would be plain and numbing.

In these moments of big emotion, my love for BabyK feels unmeasurable. The depths the heart can reach for a child seems unfathomable (10 points for you if you caught the pun here). So why do we so often question our own worth and value? When all is lost and broken, know that God is ready to scoop you up in His loving hands and say "It's okay, Daddy's here, daddy's got you."

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Revelation 21:4

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."