... Biased

The sun rays stream in from the back window and graze her plump, rosy cheeks and strawberry kissed hair. Her little hands gather her blocks with such precision and enthusiasm. It's hard to believe something so small could be so graceful. Something amuses her, so she turns to you to share the wonder she has found. The eyes sparkle, the nose crinkles and the giggle that rests on your ears warms your heart like a hot coco in the hands of the skater on the outdoor rink. For a moment you could have sworn you saw snow-white feathers forming wings behind her and a halo appearing just above the crown of her head. Surely this is perfection.

Yup. I said it. BabyK is perfect; at least to me. I know it may seem cliché as most parents would think their own baby to be the cutest little human (rightfully so). Even then, I'll also be the first one to admit that when our daughter was first born she looked more like a womp-rat with Palpatine hands than she did an adorable mini human. And yet, as I gazed into her attentive eyes, all I could see was the most precious gem.

Each day she grows more beautiful and loveable. Each day I stand more amazed that God would consider me worthy to be her mom. What have I done to receive such favor? Nothing that would merit this kind of blessing. All I can say to myself in these moments is that God is truly gracious.

I mean this in more than just a "how kind", or "so pleasant" kind of way. In the bible, grace holds a much deeper concept. God's grace to us is shown when, although we deserve nothing, He has given us everything. His grace was displayed in His choice to pay a debt we could never repay and suffer a punishment that should have been ours. Although in my mind I know that Jesus dying for me will be the most triumphant act of grace I will ever know, my heart is able to understand a little deeper how miraculous this act is through the lens of being BabyK's mom.

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Luke 1:28

"The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you.”

Isaiah 30:18

"Therefore the Lord longs to be gracious to you, And therefore He waits on high to have compassion on you. For the Lord is a God of justice; How blessed are all those who long for Him."

Joel 2:13

"And rend your heart and not your garments. Now return to the Lord your God, For He is gracious and compassionate, Slow to anger, abounding in lovingkindness and relenting of evil."