... Becoming Natural

I remember a few weeks after being married, turning to my husband, and sharing how we both couldn't believe how natural our marriage was feeling. We both found it hard to remember the times where we weren't married. It was as if we had always been married. As times goes on, it only feels more and more this way. Just as life before marriage seems to be a blur, life without BabyK is also fading.

Today BabyK will be 6 months old. How could 1/2 the year fly by and yet feel like an entire lifetime all at once? I remember reading our sleep book and shuddering as the author advised that there would be no shred of "normalcy" until 6 weeks had passed (And that was if you were lucky). Those 40 days seemed to drag on as I counted each one down hoping to see the light at the end of a very dark and mysterious tunnel.

In the beginning I questioned everything. Google was constantly being consulted to answer my questions and the guide given to me by our hospital nurse was read and re-read what felt like every hour. How many poops again? Is it ok that I chewed that peppermint gum? When will she crawl? Why is she only eating for 5 minutes instead of 40? I felt like I was treading water while all kinds of flotation devices were being thrown at me from numerous caring and experienced friends and professionals. Through it all, I somehow managed to find my way to today and BabyK, HubbyK and I all survived.

I'm still finding answers to my questions, and still appreciate the love and support that is so readily given. But thankfully, many things that seemed so foreign have now become second nature. Things I once feared, I can now enjoy (nursing being the the #1 element of motherhood with the greatest turn around).

I suppose this can be true for almost any part of our lives. The more we press on and experience, the more we become comfortable and confident. This doesn't mean the journey is ever done. I completely anticipate for motherhood to be a continued source of battles and victories, all of which I hope will be used to make me more like Jesus.

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Philippians 3:12

"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal,but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me."

Matthew 11:29-30

"Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."