... A Change of Pace

Life before baby consisted of lots of work and lots of play. I was used to being on the go with daily commitments and last minute running around. My job required 100% of my attention on the clock and my time off was filled with my own schedule. Then something happened; we had a baby!

I was already used to schedules and time management but at a different pace and a different end goal. BabyK's schedule is more fluid and organic. Suddenly I find my old ways of grabbing my keys and wallet and running out of the door replaced by careful timing and execution. I can no longer look at the clock in panic and run out the door. Now, I need to feed, diaper, pack (For what feels like a mini vacation sometimes), load in BabyK; and then hope I didn't forget anything.

At first this seemed like a nuisance to me. All these extra steps felt like a burden. But I am beginning to see them now as more of a buffer. Having so much more to do to complete the same tasks has now assured a less packed schedule and a more flexible frame of mind. Now, instead of setting an alarm 10mins before I have to leave, I'm setting alarms for 30-40mins before I have to leave and reaping the benefits:

• I always have an empty bladder when I arrive at my destination (Washroom breaks are a precious commodity for a mom)

• I am way more prepared for things

• I feel less rushed in the day overall from event/task hopping

• There are no deadlines, grades, or pressures to be daily responsible for

• People expect me to be late so when I am on time it is seen as success and when I'm late it I'm not shamed

• I spend hours of the day playing, singing and goofing around

• Every 3 hours I will be "forced" to put my feet up and gaze at an adorable baby as she eats

The list could go on. Although Motherhood in these early stages can sometimes feel exhausting, it's a total different kind of tired; it feels more natural.

By the time BabyK is walking, I'm sure the pace will change once again. But in the meantime I will enjoy this rest that I have been given in the new rhythm I am experiencing.

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Psalm 46:10

"Be still and know that I am God."